Sparkly Heart

Are you asking me if I have fall […]?

                                                                  -ha ha ha ha

I’ve fallen in love a thousand times, or I believe I did.

One of those… broke my heart and all my insides, real bad.

And with time, self-care and self-love I re-built myself piece by piece.

Even my hair went from black to white, long to short, from healthy to be burnt,

Until it became ashes.

Meanwhile I continue building my soul, brick by brick. I forgive and forget, and now that      person have my love as a friend.

Even when the time when by

I was grateful for been broken, and reconstructed on my own.

Then I met someone, I thought I was in love… REALLY in love. But one day I saw the dark parts inside that person, the ones that when you think you are “in love” you just don’t see.

It took me days to see that was not “my person”.

I couldn’t allow somebody break me, when I have just reconstructed myself.

Between all this, a sparkly heart came to my life -smiles.

But I felt the sparks for the wrong one… jum hu hu hu.

I even felt nervous every time we met, and little bit of sadness when I left.

Pure smile came to my face when the sparkly heart was around, every move was full of grace. And more, and more, and more reactions, sensations, passion, feelings,

!!!Shit!!!!  Feelings came by… I felt in love, but I felt in love alone.

Damn it, I realize, I was dancing on my own.

Now I wonder and crave to know the version of the sparkly heart.

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